Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart...

Okay. No here it is. Mike is leaving tomorrow. The real test is here. I got alot of mixed up emotions right now. Honestly, im happy that this might help him improve his life. Honestly, im sad because that means not talking to him in 9 weeks. God knows he is the only one i talk to. Honestly, im worried because i know things will change after 9 weeks as if the 9 weeks is not enough to cause me pain. Honestly, im scared because i know even when these things are happening, we still wont be meeting each other real soon. And i am scared because i've spent so much years waiting for him, im scared nothing will happen. But isnt this the real meaning of love? Giving in, sacrificing, not asking something in return? I dont know what will happen so im still holding on to the fact that i love him and will wish for what's best for him. While im goin to search for myself, live in independence, not expecting too much from him yet praying for the best. One thing's for sure, im so hurt right now i wanted to just cry and drift away :(

i will miss you baby...