my breakfast

I kind of lost my temper a little while ago. I realized one thing while I was eating the burnt food for breakfast. Hard earned money needs not to be wasted. I was just kind of pissed with our help because she over cooked the food. The first thing that comes to my mind is the money I spent to buy for the food. But I held it inside because I know she wouldn't care; she never spent a cent to it. And I was like that when I was still a student;I didn't care.

Then i remembered one family friend of ours. She always tells me almost everything that's going on whenever we have the chance to catch up. Sometimes, I feel like she's being too mean whenever she shared things like she yelled at the help because of some expensive stuff not being handled properly and all that. I didn't get her at that point. But now, I feel like I understood where she's coming from, minus the yelling part of course. I just ate in silence and told our help not to overcook the food next time.

I realized the value of hard earned money, the importance of saving but at the same time of being understanding to people who may not share the same point of view as we do. and of course, of not yelling :P

what i want

I really haven't gotten so much time keeping track of my life here in my blog. It's just that its so hard to write when you are overwhelmed with so much emotions that you dont know where to start. I hate validating my feelings because it removes the uncertainty and the vulnerability to things. I want to be surprised, i want spontaneity but my guard is up almost all of the time. Maybe its something i should work on this year. I have to gotta let it happen instead of making it happen this time. I hope as what I always believed in on the first of January 2012; that this is my year :)

sissy

I always consider myself lucky for having her as my sister. I didnt ask for her but God gave me exactly who I need for as a sister. She always make it sure that nobody hurts me and that she always make it sure that I am being taken care of. I just feel very special. I love her so much :)

The Spending Game

Everybody has been talking about the 500 dollars since December! Our company’s CEO traditionally, for consecutive 2 years now gives away 500 dollars as an appreciation to its hardworking employees. Now, I don’t have the money yet but there’s a gazillion things going on my mind right now. What to do, what to pay, what to buy?!!? Now I will definitely will enrol in a Sped Class come February. I’ll forget about the laptop first and I have decided that I will get an itouch4 because I want to take pictures a lot. So I kinda needed it more than a laptop. We have a desktop at home and and I can crash at my sister’s shop anytime for any internet stuff or something. I don’t have any vital reasons in going online since Mike disappeared. I just wanted a laptop so that I can concentrate on writing. But it can wait.

Now since we’re talking about MONEY, Im happy of my annual raise. Now compared to other people at work, I know I earn lesser than they do. It frustrates me but oh well, it won’t do me any good. I just want to appreciate the raise! Hehehe

CAR. I hate my dad because he is the most fickle minded person ever! One time, he’s just game about buying a car then next, he’s changed his mind in a blink. I need him to back me up and I need him to support me. I need a car, and I will learn how to drive once I have it. As of right now, I don’t feel the urge of learning how to drive because I don’t see the use in doing so if I don’t have a car. Hopefully, we can come up with money and a sound decision to push through with it. He’s been telling the same thing about getting a car since 2009! Its crazy and its making me real mad because I feel like he doesn’t mean it. :(

crossroads

sometimes, you just have to not follow the FLOW and stop and think about the things you really want. im at that point and i need time to think!

My walk with Niño

One achievable goal that I set for 2012 is to join the procession for Sto. Nño. I realized that after all, Sinulog is because of the feast of our Patron Saint Sto. Niño. Let’s not go into the details coz I don’t want to talk about religion!

My walk. I was with co workers Xela, Maya and J-ann’s beautiful family. I didn’t go home and decided to store some energy by making use of the office’s sleeping lounge. I indeed slept though my feet were freezing cold! But that was a good 3 hour sleep. It should be enough to keep me going. What I like about my experience is the awesome weather! Oh boy, never did the sun shone! And I like like like it!  The crowd was really huge but I know its something normal when it comes to Sinulog. So obviously, we didn’t have the chance to go inside the Basilica anymore. I kept on clutching my bag so tightly so a avoid misfortunate event like getting pick-pocketed to. Its better that way than be sorry. I like it when streets are close and a lot of people just walk around the city. I thanked God we are all safe and there’s no upheavals. What I really don’t like about is the lack of solemnity of the procession. I cant concentrate because of the huge crowd and because of the chit chats. I would want it to be a walk with Sto. Niño. I realized that with a crowd as huge as yesterday’s, being solemn may not come in very handy. Unfortunately, I got no camera so I really don’t have pictures of yesterday. Now, the debate of securing an itouch 4 or a camera resurfaced in my head again!

When we arrived in Colon Maya lead the way and she brought us to Cebu Thrift House. Where I was able to buy 3 books for 98 pesos!! I was thrilled as much as Mommy J-an’s kid who also is delighted with books. I am definitely going back for more!


FIREWORKS. SM held their 4th Pyrofest Competition last night and Im glad it started the very moment we arrived on the spot! Woohoo.. We got the perfect little nook to watch the incredible fireworks display. I love fireworks, Its nothing but “awesomeness” in the night sky!


But really, I wanted to thank the Sto Niño for always protecting Cebu from any calamities. For the warmth of the Cebuano people and for making Cebu a very liveable place for me. I am a true blue Cebuano and Im proud with that. I also am praying for my Family and the last thing I pray would be that Mike is safe wherever he is right now. I just want to know that he is alive and safe that’s all. I hope to hear from him in the next 6 months.

Overall, yesterday was a happy experience!

Work as if you don’t NEED the money!

Work was really busy awhile ago! Busy at a call center means, calls are coming in like crazy! Well, we kinda anticipated the heavy call volume but oh boy, it blew me away. my head was about to crack the hell up. Migraine was the last thing i wanna worry about on a busy day at work. I surely hoped it was just MIND GREEN; as what Henrick had to say but no unfortunately, it wasn’t! I wish later on when i wake up everything will be much better now. I just felt sick. Now, whats good about today is going home with FUN HELPERS!

I thank you Lord for them. There was free pizza at work too! Hey did i mentioned i did overtime too? Urghh! Hoping for the better tonight!

and PS! Kim agreed to teach me to DRIVE though i will have to pay him! im going to make it this year! yipeee!!!