Though sometimes loneliness gets to me, I still feel lucky despite of my own personal battles about love and life. I was hurt so bad, and maybe I'm still hurting right now but God still found His way to me by giving me alot of things to thanked about. I am somewhat proud of where I am right now. I have a job, I am single, I got no major responsibilities. I am living a carefree life. I sure do have payables but they do not require stress; or maybe I'm just being too lenient in life right now. In terms of my career, I still haven't stepped up yet because I still don't know what I really want. Im taking it slow and im carefully thinking about where to go from here. But even when sometimes it makes me sad knowing all of the others are stepping up, I still believe something is great coming in my way. Maybe not now, not here but there will come a time that I'll be in a happier place and position. I am positive.
I got me on my back. I have issues. I am a friend and enemy to myself. I may not be confident at all times but in tough times, I have myself to believed in. I know I can count on the girl staring at me in the mirror. God is my partner at all times. I seldom ask God for something but when I do, oh boy I tell you, I have an AWESOME God! He knows me too well and He knows that whenever I ask something, it is something that I badly wanted and he hears me. I proved it alot of times in my life. He gave me enough pain to be strong. He has given me less so that I'd stay grounded. I could write about every single thing God has bestowed me and I could use up all day. But I got no need to do that because my faith is all that matters. It is the unwritten, this unexplained gratitude that I feel towards life matters the most.
I can make the people I love laugh. It's in me. I often miss my bestfriend's laughing until it creates tears on her eyes. And i feel happy sharing the best times of life with her even when we're just at home hanging out. I miss her so much and her laughs stamped into my memory and as of right now I will hold on to them since she's far away. I dance the craziest when Im with my family and they go crazy laughing at my steps. They will then grab their cameras and fone to record my crazy dancing and it makes me want to dance more. They would then tell me that I have ADHD then we would laugh again. We love doing baby talks and I know its pathetic and crazy but hey, it's just the way it is when Im with them. I love it when I goof around and they would laugh. Its music to me. It goes the same thing for my closest friends. I feel like this ability to make people laugh is a gift from God. He knows how it means to me that I can somehow manage to make them smile and laugh :)
I may not have enough in life, I may be short with alot of things but just like everybody else, I was made lucky and I will try my best everyday to believe that I always am bound to be. Wherever life would take me, in the ocean of discouragements, i'll rise above and stay afloat because i am.....just lucky ;p
