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We all get hurt. It's practically normal and its part of our existence. When we're at it, it feels like the whole world is closing in on us... that there's no other way out, that the love we cared the most is gone. I myself lingered with such pain. I think its pretty normal to act like a goddamn fool but how you handle it as a whole can define who you are. I experienced how a dream died before my eyes, its the most painful thing ever to see. I've heard stories of how love has lost and in my mind and in my heart, i felt like i have understood almost all of  them. It is ugly but we have to deal with it.
I went out with friends, I tried new things, I kept myself busy with just about everything. I rendered extra hours at work, I cried in the washroom, in my station. I went to bars and I read books. I did things not to just preoccupy my mind but at the same time i know that in my mind i have to live. And the super melodramatic question would constantly come in... "what's the meaning of life  if i have to do everything alone?" I had to ask myself why people wont like me. though im crushed inside, i persisted. I made it sure that i can prove it to myself that im way better than my insecurities. I made a promise to love myself first. i talked to God almost everyday. I made good deeds to atleast 1 person each day. it made me feel better. I felt like I dont need to love just one person, i can make a relationship to the world.  i gained new friends and I realized that im finally seeing life in a new light.

You see, if you're broken and you feel insecure there's no one who can fix the damage but you. you "self-medicate". It's definitely ok to  take a moment to cry and let the pain linger for a moment. Feel every minute of  it as it painfully tears down your chest. Cry if you must.

But dont forget that you must get up and wipe those sad tears coz you are just about bound to change your life for the better. We are all made better after a heart ache. Being better should be the next direction after your heart's being devastated. And perhaps, maybe that's why we need to get hurt so that we will come out as better persons. Do not shut someone out of your heart because you have been hurt. Never despair. But instead, love yourself more, acknowledge your capabilities, celebrate YOU and be the person whom people will look up to. then who knows... someone is watching you from afar .. already fallin into the most candid and natural YOU :)