grr

i feel disappointed. Mike told me that im a waste of his time. wtf!! fine. im so not talking to him. Whatever that is. even if it hurts me, i wont care anymore. He is such an ass!! if i could just trade something just to forget everything about him then i wouldnt think twice to do so!!! how dare him!

its a green thing

So I decided to stop for a moment and reflect on the things that makes me really busy this time. You see, I am graduating in college this coming March and tell you, it’s a lot of job! First of, my baby thesis is really taking an ample of my time, effort and energy. It also does makes me very anxious working on it since I know I should be really doing well. We have to submit the paper this week and not hearing much from our thesis adviser is another thing that puts more anxiety to it. My thesis is about the Sociolinguistics of the blogosphere. Well good thing is, I really have a personal inclination to reading blogs. So it wasn’t that hard for me to deal with it, ironically, what’s harder was dealing with a partner. Haha. I mean, I still can’t tell if it’s totally a bad thing to have him as a thesis partner. It’s just that, sometimes I feel it’s unfair to do all the hardwork and at the end, he will get all the praises and recognition by the professor. At one time, it discouraged me to put my best to it, but I realized I should set aside those issues and just get on going. I pondered a lot bout it but I wanna deal with it later. Anyway, this is just a preface of my whatabouts :) im goin now.

Ciao!

my baby

he is the sweetest!! i miss my mikey so much :(

my sweet baby

solitary

I dont know where my classmates are.

All i know is that I m alone :(

but its alright. Though its kind of sad being alone, i learned to value independence..

hahaha.. so ironic though..

and that's another story to begin...

JORGE ur princess

clean up drive

I never was a good "room keeper". i am messy like that and its sumthing that is already in my system. GOD! can't change really though i was really really trying so hard to clean up my room everyday and not every week. i found out that though im messy like that, there's a snippet of a chance for me to clean up too!

so what happened to Pooh?? well, i dont know. I just thought he's old enough to take care of himself.. or maybe he cant help but adore my lovely and shimmery purse!

now that's a dual-task JACKET over there :P
could multi-task too.. SOON!!

I'm a student. that explains it


for some odd reasons, books started bowing down. haha

a few minutes after... realization evaded


and a lil vanity added to it is not bad at all

tug

it felt like a tug... whether to write or not to write. To start, or not to start...


Chris and I went to Ayala and never did i thought that I am goin to lose my 4 year old school ID! I persuade him not to come to Philo class. haha. im bad like that.

together with my lost Id is the lost hope that I could still retrieve it. You know, when u lose something that's been a part of you, something in you is lost too. There's a piece of you that is lost, no matter how cheap or expensive that thing is. I value my ID. It's a small card but its a BIG part of my being a college girl. Maybe in my case, I will lose those moments that i used to sling my Id around my neck. For four years of wearing and not wearing my ID, it finally came to a stop. It's actually abrupt. how can i go to school without my ID?! its kind of ridiculous.

Right now, Im here in school and just killing the time away. I hate it when im all alone because alot of thoughts will just come running on my mind... and sometimes, they come to me.. invading my thoughts and making me look back to things that makes me sad, makes me wonder or those kind of things that just worry me to death!

This morning on my way to school, father was unusually silent the whole time. Silence kills. I wanna cry.. but i was telling myself how pathetic that could be. But also within me, is the unexplained connection that's been telling my mind and heart that something is wrong with papa. I know he is in pain. I think bout his health and how i worry about it. His stomach is in pain and he never wanted to see a doctor. I part of me wanted to suggest and urge him to see one right away, but a part of me doesnt wanna know the truth. Ignorant.

I love him soo much and he's been through alot already especially these past months. I hope that God will always protect him and guide him. I dont know what to do without my papa :(