Wednesday, December 30, 2009

2010

wow. there's so much to be thankful about year 2009 and im looking forward for a better and meaningful 2010.

First, I am so grateful of 2009 because finally i passed the bittersweet years of my academic life. I miss it sometimes but I couldnt be grateful enough to have finish school because....

I am now employed! The shift in my life was great. Everything is so new and I was enjoying every bit and pieces of it even though its exhausting! I gained new friends and met a few interesting people.

But there is also one thing that I wanna improve on for the next year. I guess my spiritual obligations were a bit challenged this year... I've been selfish and self righteous I forgot to call God's presence here in my heart.
I also want to be grateful for all the pain and suffering because I know in time, I would realize why they all came to me. Just that now, Im still in the process of understanding things as to why they cant come like the way we want them to be and eventually accept them with a joyful heart.

One thing that I wanna be thankful about is of course my family. We've been through alot and I know the healing process would take time, I would just love to see them happy...

Im so lucky to have been blessed!!!

I hope God will always be with me and Im hoping for the best in 2010!!! :) im so excited!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

its been a while!

its been a while since i've dropped by...

ive been stuck with the same thing. taking calls, eating breakfast with mitch, talking online with my virtual boyfriend, and sleeping while im watching people being happy...

i really want to go somewhere far but that means not looking back and starting as a whole new person again. I dont want to open up to people anymore. I dont want them to know me. I feel like im such a loser. I want to get away.. and i really need to plan on that.

i dont want to hide in a shell feeling sorry for myself. feeling envious to the people around me. I want to be happy and im tired being lonely. I want someone.. i want someone to love me...