I really haven't gotten so much time keeping track of my life here in my blog. It's just that its so hard to write when you are overwhelmed with so much emotions that you dont know where to start. I hate validating my feelings because it removes the uncertainty and the vulnerability to things. I want to be surprised, i want spontaneity but my guard is up almost all of the time. Maybe its something i should work on this year. I have to gotta let it happen instead of making it happen this time. I hope as what I always believed in on the first of January 2012; that this is my year :)
