missing

everyday has been a miracle for me. its not easy living each day, living each hour, living each minute or second not knowing and not hearing from mike. And i know, he felt the same way too.. he might have feel twice the pain im undergoing right now. sometimes, life gets sour without any notices and it struck u along and u dont have a choice but be strong and sturdy as u can be. I wish i can reach mike tell him to hang in there, remind him i love him and to tell him his all what i am thinking of every day.. that i just, just love him. I wish i can hug him and tell him everything would be fine. i leave it all to God, trust mike that he can surpass training and most of all trust God whatever the outcome would be. now that i got a feeling that he's been having difficulties in training, i feel like i wanna be strong for him. oh god, if i can just break down and cry, drown all the miseries.. but i know that would be the last thing i wanna do. i wanna be there for him. i know he feels me right now. i love u so much baby