I think this is the best moment for me to look back… to look back at those things that I had been denying to myself in the past and is now haunting all over me… To look back at those things that I had done in the past years, especially that I’ll soon leave the portals of USC. To look back at the girl that I used to be. I mean, there are just a lot of reasons to do so. I wasn’t the same Jorge four years ago. And that makes all the difference.
The biggest achievement I’ve done so far was going to college. Going to college was a big leap. It’s not because my parents cannot afford to send me to school but it is more on the internal and external forces that was tossing and turning me in. First year was hard. I had to be strong for myself and get out of my shell. I have to make friends and of course, I have to adjust. I was kind of “culture shocked.” I felt very little. But even so, I lingered the moment. I made friends and the closest was Sheena. It was a relieve having to know her. We were always together and the best thing in college was that you can do whatever you want. Like, literally. She had her own pad and we hang out in her place and we became the best of friends. “yadj…” I miss calling her with that. When that year ended, she left. But I kept the memories with me… It’s been years and I never really heard from her though we go to the same school. It is sad to know that she never kept in touch despite of my efforts to do so. People come and go… few would decide to stay.
In a snap, I was in my sophomore year. I found myself alone again. I was serious with my studies then. Not because I wanted honor but I just felt like I need to do it for myself. Thank God that I don’t have parents who would force me to get the best grade there is. They know I am the average girl and knowing that, I felt relieve because I wasn’t pressured at all. One of the best classes that year was my Anthropology Class. My first “getaway” with college friends was made possible by our teacher Mr. Bon Aure. He is the coolest teacher ever!! We always admire him for being such a cool one. No pressures, just fun learning… and by fun.. I meant the BIG FUN! No fuss at all.. no homework and all we do was watch documentary shows and some stuff like that. Our finals was the best, I remember an item there asking the name of the person who sat the seat next to mine ;p
They said, if one something/someone was taken away from you, it’s because God has bigger plans for you. God is indeed a good God. I found my truest friends when I was in my second year. God gave me CHENA, BING and LYN. I considered them my bestest in my college life. We are four different individuals but there is something that binds us altogether. And it was the magic that FRIENDSHIP spelled on us. I love being with them. They accepted me for who I am even though I am pathetic at times. It was those times that I was heard, understood and appreciated. It was those times that I let them in. It was those times that I was nothing but myself. It was with them when first gone to the BAR. Hahaha.. ggezzz.. it was with them that I first got drunk. It was with them that I first heard of awesome things bout sex. Lol (CHENA AND LYN- the sexperts). It was with them that I shed my tears when I got my heart broken. I was with Chena and Bing just when I needed my friends the most. They were there. Trying to comfort me, while Bing looked confuse on what to do and what to say (haha) And of course, for the laughs.. the BIG ONES, I thanked LYN for being there. Our friendship was tested through time.
For Chena. My lifeline. I don’t know but she came to me as if God was giving me the bestest lifetime gift ever with no definite reason at all. She was just a plain classmate who seemed to like my jokes very much! Chen, I remember the time when we just sat down under the nangka tree in school and you can’t help but laugh at my jokes and you kept on asking for more. Hehe (see Bing, im not that corny at all!) Having to find my way to Chena was really a blessing. She knows me too well. She knows when I hold back something. She knows that I have to tell her something when I start to bottle things up. She was like.. she is the best. Need I say more? She is the wittiest, hottest, prettiest, strongest, sexiest, “guys-would-go-locoiest”, smartest and most of the truest friend ever. What more could I ask?! im so thankful to have her as my friend. I am truly lucky to have her. Chena, I would die for you!! I wanna thank her for just being there, even though we don’t see each other often anymore because you have work and other priorities. You stayed, and that’s all that matters J
It was on my second year that I got very good grades. I was proud of myself then. (nakasuway ug DL!) haha…
More of my stuff in the next post! J
With my short stay in USC, I realized that I wasn’t there for the mere reason of solely learning the things that I should know but, I see it more than that... beyond that. It is the people that made my stay worth it. It is through dealing with different kinds of people that makes up a big part of me. It is through understanding the people around me, and in return being understood by these people.
