i hate myself for loving mike so much.
its so hard because i cant get mad at him, i cant ask anything to him, i cant demand anything to him, i cant be the normal gf, i cant get upset, i dont have the right to intervene.. i dont.. i cant but its all my choice. most of all, i cant blame him. i cant. i blame myself, i pity myself coz i know i love him soo much even though its wrong, even though fate wont let us, i kept on pushing him to stay even if he frankly says he cant...
its soo painful but i know i cant count on him for this because this is all my choice and he's got nothing to do with this even if i badly want him to be with me in this. but it cant be..
