im kind of hurt when mike wants me to be like karen. I know he always likes her. not maybe in the romantic sense but i can feel it that this girl always has an impact to him.
as i was assessing things between us and the others, i found that the thing we have for each other is incomparable to them. first, this is a long distance relationship. we didnt get the chance to do things together, we havent seen each other do things in each others' way. third, our trust and sincerity is tested the most. he said that he wants a girl who doesnt need to see him or talk to him everyday. while i need to talk to him everyday because i want to make sure he is doing fine. i dont know if the problem is me or him. im willing to do that anyway. this time, i need to independent. i need to worry less. i need to think less. i need to expect less. i need to pick up myself from self pity, from being too hopeful....
