dear blog

do i deserve this? whenever we spend time, he ended up sleeping coz he cant help it and he feels sleepy. even when we dont have enough time to spend anymore, even when i like to spend every minute of him, i still feel the need to compete because he feels sleepy and needs to sleep and i know the right thing is to give way and let him sleep even when it means we cant talk. im so damn tired having to race just to get not just his time but attention but i know he didnt mean it. i dont know. its bullshit.