" Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened."
Mathew 7:7-12
I
am always someone who’s good at hiding my real feelings, especially when I’m a
bit sad. Well, just this week, I was feeling really bad about myself. I badly
want to be a teacher but nobody seems to want to help me and I barely had
gotten any calls from schools where my applications were sent. It’s such a bummer.
I got no work, and it finally sink in that I can no longer be with my boyfriend
at all times. I am at the point of
desperation when suddenly my sister asked me about my FB status about me crying
again. I hated me for being silent when she asked and right then and there, I
just burst into tears. It was stupid of me to show her I cried because I don’t want
to appear weak to anybody’s eyes. But she is my sister, I know that I’m very
dear to her so I let myself be. I just cried to her. It felt good and in the
middle of it, I got a text message from the school I emailed my application to
that same morning. They asked me for a demo teaching tomorrow. Right in the
middle of my desperation, God intervened and reminded me that He is not closing
His doors to my dreams. He was looking at me at that very moment and He acted
upon it instantly. This is my chance.
So
hopefully tomorrow I will be the best that I can be and I pray that God will be
with me the whole time because that’s what I want to happen from this day on
and forward. When I had the job and the money, I don’t remember God but when I
have nothing, I still have Him and He still listens to me. My God is a good God
and I vowed at church today that through good and bad times God will stay in my
heart no matter what.
I
feel so ashamed because my faith in God wasn’t constant for the past years, but
He showed me that He still love me despite of my imperfections. This time around,
I will be a good child to the Lord and will always try my best every day to be good
to other people especially to my loved ones.
For
now, I have to hit the sack. Tomorrow is a new day of hope, praise and love!
