breakdown

i didnt know what happened last night but i felt like the world was closing in on me. I cannot move, i was too scared, my heart was pounding and my mind cant stop about thinking of bad things. I felt so alone for the very first time, and for the very first time, I wasnt scared to admit it to my sister. Im glad that my parents we're there to pick me up and I had to go home because I cant stand being alone at my boarding house. I just wanted someone to be there for me. I can't sleep and I was awake for 24 hrs. I felt so bad and I had to skip work and worst, I didnt call because I cant find a better excuse.

Please God, have mercy on me. I wanted to be a better person but I can't be weak like this.