its been quite a while

Alot has happened this year, and hopefully there will be more to come for the last 2 months of  2012 . There are just alot and I guess, ironic as it may seem, it's one of the reasons why I dont get to write stuff about my life anymore. I can't believe we're moving to the last month of the year. Well, kinda moving that way. One thing that I realized and proven is the fact that when you start off with a positive vibe, then somehow you will get to see a favorable outcome. Like when I always say to myself at the beginning of the year, that 2012 will be my year. I held on to that thought. I was able to breakfree with the misery that Mike had brought to me. I was able to survive hell-ish days, weeks, months at work with so much poise and grace. I learned to drive and later will be getting my drivers license! (talking about positive vibe huh) but  most especially, i found someone new. He fills my days with love :) I just cant believe it. I think im real picky when it comes to men that's why even when I want to forget my dream of a happy fuckin ending with Mike, I still find it handy to be with my own self than being with someone who does nothing but turn me off all day. But Tony is different. He has his own swag that perfectly fits my preference on a man. He doesnt glorify me like crazy and I like that. He is mature enough and maybe it fits my being playful. I dont know. He loves me for sure but of course there are complications along the way. I know he's one big thing in my life right now but I am in an unwritten contract that I am not allowed to expect more from our relationship because I think that's what he wants and I want it that way too to avoid heart aches i guess.  But doing so without hurting is BS. It still hurts that I agree to not allow myself to look at it in a long term relationship because I feel like im wasting my time. But, a part of me says it never is a waste of time because the present is all that counts and it all that matters anyways. Well maybe I just find it weird to know that I am just waiting for this to end. Not because I want to but because it has to... eventually. But I as much as possible, I dont want to linger in that thought  but I just want myself to continue to be happy by being the right person for him each day that we're together. It's a happy feeling at all! ;p

One More Chance

When it comes to movies, content is important for me. Questions like, "Is it realistic?" if it's not, "will it keep me entertained the whole time?" are the top things I would asked to make a movie good enough for me. Filipino movies are not the most enticing to watch on my "list" because they are not that realistic for me and sometimes they just don't keep me entertained at all. Or sometimes, I dont find any social relevance in them  compared to Indian movies that I watched in the past. When I watch, it should be transcending or if not, it should just be as realistic as one could be. One More Chance is by far my favorite Filipino movie. The story is simple but it in all aspects, its true and it can happen to anyone in real life. I like how a story can be so tragic. Hey its tragic but so is life. 

                                      That's a spoof pic my friends and I made when we we're bored in Davao.


I can watch the movie again and again. I commend John Lloyd and umm Bea Alonzo for a job well done. It tells us about how beautiful love is when they're shared by someone but at the same time, its the same love that can bring so much pain and misery on each and everyone. Goes to show that too much love is dangerous coz you're giving pieces of you to that person and he/she can break your heart and can spin your life upside down  ANYTIME, without you knowing when. It can give you a real hard blow. The movie captures everything and I love it.

One of my favorite scene was when the guy told the girl that he will be going away to Qatar for work. He mentioned about how he still loves the girl but he's the one who needs "time" this time. It's complicated but with the pain he's gone through, its totally understandable. The girl absolutely knows where he's coming from. They locked it with a good release of painful tears and a bittersweet kiss.

                                                                        my fave scene :(

When you love, leave a portion of yourself to yourself. Give each other  own personal space and time. Being together doesnt mean you need to do everything together. Plan your own trip, your own "me time" and make your own decisions. You can do all these and still come home to the person that you love. Strive to be better everyday for yourself and for your loved ones. But hey, nobody will be able to realize all of these without getting hurt. Like, what I said, its complicated. It is beautiful but sad. Love is profound and it has its own and unique definition to each and everyone of us. Here's one of  my favorite lines from Popoy. 

"I want my HEART to stop breaking, sana pag naging tayo na ulit, kaya na kitang mahalin ng buong buo. na walang halong takot kung masaktan man tayo ulit."

driver's license

           I am the most laid back person I ever met. Im not even sure if that's the right word. It's just that, I dont keep goals that much so I often end up wandering in the air. I think its something that I need to work on in the future. Well, I do have things I wanted to accomplish in life, I just needed to be more focus, I guess. 

           So, I remembered that early this year I had a few goals I wanna accomplish before this year will end. I guess I was keeping it at a very minimum number of 3 goals. I honestly cant remember the third one and most probably its the reason why by far (as early as now) I only get to see the two in progress ;p Anyhow, Im happy about it.

             My first goal is something I wanna talk about some other time, in another post. But the second one is about obtaining a driver's license! So lookie the title of the blog! 

           Now to start off, here's a pic of myself in the driver's seat.

                                                   I am now the girl behind the wheels!

            Oh well, for the life of my dad-- he believed that I can never drive a manual car so he bought an automatic and used car that I can use to and from work. It's a 2004 model of Nissan March. Well, who cares. I just needed wheels so I was kind of happy because that means, it will eventually put a stop to my seemingly endless agony of commuting every day. 

           But of course, I needed to get proper license in driving. I got one last month. 

  It's a student permit that I needed to get first

       I am impressed of how fast and orderly the LTO (Talisay) was when I acquired my student permit. It was very convenient and I went through a smooth process. I paid about P300 to get one. It's actually my second time in getting a student permit. It expires after a year but you can apply for a real license (Professional or Non Professional) after a month from the day you got the SP. So an SP looks like the one above. I must say that I hate the government photo IDS! Everything in their office is routine so they wont care much if you're prepared to get yourself a shot or not. So mine looks like a disaster, as always!

         I just got back from my trip in Palawan. Earlier today, I went to LTO to get my Non Prof license. I paid about a hundred pesos to start the process. I chose to follow the standard process in obtaining a license wherein one would need to pass the written exams before the practical test. Well to cut the chase, I didnt pass the written exams. Needed to get 30 out of 40 but I only got 29! I dont know if I will be frustrated. Well I guess I am. I needed to wait another month to reapply. So thats another friggin 30 days of not being allowed to drive alone! Oh well, I am too dormant to take any risk/ exams so failing the written exams made me sad today. The thing about it though is that I can retake the next month. Now my mini goal is to nail the exams and give them a whooping perfect score! hahaha

         Everything happens for a reason, maybe despite of my hours in practicing driving, maybe I needed another month to practice more before the practical exams. Hopefully next month I wont need any lucks to pass. I will ace it for sure ;p

           

driver

I'm a certified commuter. Riding jeepneys to and from everywhere around the city is a part of my daily life; its a part of my system so its not something big of a deal. But i will mention it anyway. Im gunna make it worth a topic for my blog.

Riding jeepneys are convenient to most cebuanos and at the same time, it saves you a whole lot of money. Do the math; 8 vs 60 pesos for a short distance trip if you'd go for the windy jeepney ride rather than hailing a taxi cab. It definitely has perks. When you are seated all the way inside, you get to feel how to be the "konduktor" as you obviously will be given the favorable task of handing the fare to the driver and vice versa.     One of the very common scenario would be the jam packed arrangement which you dont really have much of a choice but to comply and squeeze your whole body in because the driver insists of the "walo-walo" seating capacity. Oh boy, you wouldnt imagine how in the world you we're able to sit and fit in a very tiny space and yet you are able to reach your destination with all your body parts whole, intact and in place. Oh well... Those are the few things one can experience in riding a jeepney. I can write a book about it!

Well, on my way home earlier my jeepney ride was kind of interesting. As opposed to the typical jeepney driver, im a bit surprised because our destined driver at that time reminds me of a typical balik-bayan or ofw from "saudi" with all those thick silver jewelries hanging around his neck and wrist with a gigantic ring on his finger. I am definitely not belittling jeepney drivers but he is not the usual scene. Then a story automatically would create inside my head. Maybe perhaps he is a retired and loyal employee and has got nothing to do on a fine saturday night that's why he is out in the road making money out of his boredom. Maybe he was indeed a humble ofw, he gets to accomplished sending all his kids to school and now he is taking life slow and makes a little money out of driving jeepney. Did I mention he's got an ipod to play for his music? Well, I will never know... What I know is he kept me awake from the whole trip because he's given me things to think about. I just find the little things in life interesting. Well whatever that is, he brought me home safe so  I pray that God will continue to bless him. There's more i gotta share about my jeepney rides but I'll settle for a few things now coz im really tired.

Wait, what's with fake grapes hanging on jeepneys' dash boards??

he makes me happy

Though lovers be lost, love shall not. Dylan Thomas' line had' hit me. I seldom write about happy things and I'm writing one today. I feel i am loved, wanted and needed by Tony.
Taciturn. That's what he is. That's how I always known him to be. But there is so much in him and he makes me wonder all of the time. I dont know, I feel like what we have right now, is so precious and its something I dont wanna lose. He simply makes me happy and I he said the same thing to me. We can be happy and not think about the future. I can live with that...

evasion

I knew all the while it that was his choice to walk away from me. I was in deep denial by then, it was spiral. Endless spiral downward staircase of dark emptiness; an abyss I so greatly feared. And one day, (I forgot exactly when) I woke up and told myself that I have to stand on my own, that I should bury the thoughts of him and just simply move on. I did. There were lesser and lesser questions in my mind; why he didnt contact me, and what he's been doing, what his daily routine like, if I ever cross his mind. I'll keep my share of pain and hopefully will learn from all of  it.

I am moving on. Painfully, slowly but im moving on. I just hate the fact that even when I know im heading to that direction, he still holds something in me. I cant ignore the fact that he still has power over me. He still does because this "him-evasion" is still haunting me, it still gets to me. Every once in a while, in the middle of my reverie, his thoughts would permeate. And i cannot speak on his behalf. I dont know why he left without letting me know. I don't know why if it's because i am being too much on him.... i really dont know why. I just knew I deserve answers and it may be something I cannot find in one single lifetime.

Perhaps, in another lifetime?

I had an early morning walk to the sari-sari store today and I realized that it has been a long time since I bought something in a sari-sari store. Now that I could find pretty much everything at home and that a flight to the malls are much more convenient to me, I hardly go and buy something in that small and humble store. While ringing the bell for someone to get what I want, I studied the insides of the store. I can see the candies, the chips in small packets, the cheap chocolates.. etc.

But it of course brought me to a place in time when I frequently go and run to our old place's small sari-sari stores. Those that our neighbors had; I was a frequent buyer in two stores as far as I can remember. It was a fun moment back then when a single peso meant an ice candy, candies, Pirate, Goody Goody and much more that a peso could offer for a kid like me. The fun part was whenever my mom would ask us to run errands to the sari-sari store, any change meant a reward for my sister and I and we would indulge ourselves with the fun stuff that we could find in Manang Yoli's or Manang Pakit's store. It genuinely was a happy moment; when the things we wanted in life were simple and can be managed by only a few peso. It obviously changes as we grow up. Things will be a little complicated, harder and a peso reward for yourself is highly impossible at this time. And I understand that. We need more, we crave more and we hit the goals higher in life rather than goin on a trip to the sari-sari store to consume the change you saw at your house's nooks and corners. But i was wondering where it go, how it stopped, when it ended? ahhh.. nostalgia!

i was made lucky

Though sometimes loneliness gets to me, I still feel lucky despite of my own personal battles about love and life. I was hurt so bad, and maybe I'm still hurting right now but God still found His way to me by giving me alot of things to thanked about. I am somewhat proud of where I am right now. I have a job, I am single, I got no major responsibilities. I am living a carefree life. I sure do have payables but they do not require stress; or maybe I'm just being too lenient in life right now. In terms of my career, I still haven't stepped up yet because I still don't know what I really want. Im taking it slow and im carefully thinking about where to go from here. But even when sometimes it makes me sad knowing all of the others are stepping up, I still believe something is great coming in my way. Maybe not now, not here but there will come a time that I'll be in a happier place and position. I am positive.

I got me on my back. I have issues. I am a friend and enemy to myself. I may not be confident at all times but in tough times, I have myself to believed in. I know I can count on the girl staring at me in the mirror. God is my partner at all times. I seldom ask God for something but when I do, oh boy I tell you, I have an AWESOME God! He knows me too well and He knows that whenever I ask something, it is something that I badly wanted and he hears me. I proved it alot of times in my life. He gave me enough pain to be strong. He has given me less so that I'd stay grounded. I could write about every single thing God has bestowed me and I could use up all day. But I got no need to do that because my faith is all that matters. It is the unwritten, this unexplained gratitude that I feel towards life matters the most.

I can make the people I love laugh. It's in me. I often miss my bestfriend's laughing until it creates tears on her eyes. And i feel happy sharing the best times of life with her even when we're just at home hanging out. I miss her so much and her laughs stamped into my memory and as of right now I will hold on to them since she's far away. I dance the craziest when Im with my family and they go crazy laughing at my steps. They will then grab their cameras and fone to record my crazy dancing and it makes me want to dance more. They would then tell me that I have ADHD then we would laugh again. We love doing baby talks and I know its pathetic and crazy but hey, it's just the way it is when Im with them. I love it when I goof around and they would laugh. Its music to me. It goes the same thing for my closest friends. I feel like this ability to make people laugh is a gift from God. He knows how it means to me that I can somehow manage to make them smile and laugh :)

I may not have enough in life, I may be short with alot of things but just like everybody else, I was made lucky and I will try my best everyday to believe that I always am bound to be. Wherever life would take me, in the ocean of discouragements,  i'll rise above and stay afloat because i am.....just lucky ;p

Jessica Sanchez - Dance With My Father ...

This made me cry :(

updates? none

5 hours of sleep; i dont know if that's something bad but if i would have the choice, I should be sleeping right now. My new time slot at work gives me mix emotions. I dont know if its something I should be happy about or if its something I hate. I had to wake up early but the feeling of getting out at 5am is appealing to me. (But i dont literally go out at 5). It gives me the opportunity to render overtime and that means more money, I hope. I got alot of things going on my mind right now that I dont even know where to start. I am just soo confuse. happily confuse though :) I dont want to stress so much drama any longer.. so whatever that is, I know I have to figure it out but right now, im just floating around everywhere. I just pray that I'll be fine and God will guide me all through out. I think i hafta hop in the shower now. ciao

:(

a little prayer

DEAR LORD, I bring my bleeding heart before You. I feel so empty and alone. And my strength ebbs to near nothing. I don't know how you'll work in my life but I trust you. And so I ask for Your healing presence, Lord. Let me pour out all my hurts and pains to you. Others may sometimes get tired of me but I know that you'll always listen, understand and care. Give me the strength to go on, to move forward each day. By Your grace I know I'd be able to let go of my hurts and disappointments, not in my time but in Your time. So thank You, Lord, for Your healing presence. Thank You for Your love that sustains me. And thank You for being here now... understanding and comforting me.

the little things in life are wot matters most...

“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.
Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.
Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.
So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!
If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

where to

I always pride myself that this is my year. I am very positive about it. But now I’m in the crossroads yet again and I barely could think straight. (I’m even struggling to type down words here). And it annoys me because I can’t figure out what I WANT. This has been an ongoing quest, this has been like forever!

Now, I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to drag people into my misery. I don’t want to take actions where I can hurt and affect people. But that’s not possible right now. I am deeply pressured but a little part of me would tell me that I don’t have to feel this way. I just have to go with the flow. Oh God knows how much I would need a friend right now. I am not really the type who would need help because I can decide for myself but right now, I feel so helpless. I want to think hard and I want to come up with a decision that is best for others and most importantly best for myself. But no, I cant.

:)

I like!

Pixie Lott - Without You

January Overload

Oh wow. I didn’t notice the calendar flipped January away. As you see, I started the year with a positive thought and surprisingly, the days came by and simply complied. I love this month because I went out a lot, I helped out a lot, it all felt busy and real. So here’s a quick scroll on how my January rolled.

-->New Year’s Day. I spend it with my ever loving family. It was simple but I love it.

--PROUD SISTER. My sis/bestfriend opened a new business and I whiled away my time helping her out. I wish nothing but success and I will support her all the way.

--Ishi’s Pregnancy. This is one of the most surprising things for this month. I think Ishi had a morning sickness the day she ignored me. I was sad that day but now I’m happy that she’s soon to have her pups. I can’t wait to see them!! I will definitely take care of my baby Ishi.

--FRIENDS. I went out a lot with co workers this month. Sinulog and Go Karting! It was all fun and I realize I should do it more often. I don’t want to be the same girl last year who just ends up self pitying at home when I can go out and party!

-- LOVE. He is definitely NOT love yet, but due to lack of a better word I’ll tag him as love. I am in constant struggle in letting go of Mike but God knows how hard I am trying. Now I met this guy, my friend at work’s brother and he amazed me by pulling me from the crowd just to say “im beautiful.” And now, he’s leaving everything behind just to be with me. Gosh I should be swept away by now.
Finally! Im very excited about it and im on the works of having it covered with wall paper. I spent so much time and money for the closet. It’s not exactly what I want but its much better than the old one. Excited to get the job done!



That’s pretty much it. Will post pics soon.


Loves,


Jorge

my breakfast

I kind of lost my temper a little while ago. I realized one thing while I was eating the burnt food for breakfast. Hard earned money needs not to be wasted. I was just kind of pissed with our help because she over cooked the food. The first thing that comes to my mind is the money I spent to buy for the food. But I held it inside because I know she wouldn't care; she never spent a cent to it. And I was like that when I was still a student;I didn't care.

Then i remembered one family friend of ours. She always tells me almost everything that's going on whenever we have the chance to catch up. Sometimes, I feel like she's being too mean whenever she shared things like she yelled at the help because of some expensive stuff not being handled properly and all that. I didn't get her at that point. But now, I feel like I understood where she's coming from, minus the yelling part of course. I just ate in silence and told our help not to overcook the food next time.

I realized the value of hard earned money, the importance of saving but at the same time of being understanding to people who may not share the same point of view as we do. and of course, of not yelling :P

what i want

I really haven't gotten so much time keeping track of my life here in my blog. It's just that its so hard to write when you are overwhelmed with so much emotions that you dont know where to start. I hate validating my feelings because it removes the uncertainty and the vulnerability to things. I want to be surprised, i want spontaneity but my guard is up almost all of the time. Maybe its something i should work on this year. I have to gotta let it happen instead of making it happen this time. I hope as what I always believed in on the first of January 2012; that this is my year :)

sissy

I always consider myself lucky for having her as my sister. I didnt ask for her but God gave me exactly who I need for as a sister. She always make it sure that nobody hurts me and that she always make it sure that I am being taken care of. I just feel very special. I love her so much :)

The Spending Game

Everybody has been talking about the 500 dollars since December! Our company’s CEO traditionally, for consecutive 2 years now gives away 500 dollars as an appreciation to its hardworking employees. Now, I don’t have the money yet but there’s a gazillion things going on my mind right now. What to do, what to pay, what to buy?!!? Now I will definitely will enrol in a Sped Class come February. I’ll forget about the laptop first and I have decided that I will get an itouch4 because I want to take pictures a lot. So I kinda needed it more than a laptop. We have a desktop at home and and I can crash at my sister’s shop anytime for any internet stuff or something. I don’t have any vital reasons in going online since Mike disappeared. I just wanted a laptop so that I can concentrate on writing. But it can wait.

Now since we’re talking about MONEY, Im happy of my annual raise. Now compared to other people at work, I know I earn lesser than they do. It frustrates me but oh well, it won’t do me any good. I just want to appreciate the raise! Hehehe

CAR. I hate my dad because he is the most fickle minded person ever! One time, he’s just game about buying a car then next, he’s changed his mind in a blink. I need him to back me up and I need him to support me. I need a car, and I will learn how to drive once I have it. As of right now, I don’t feel the urge of learning how to drive because I don’t see the use in doing so if I don’t have a car. Hopefully, we can come up with money and a sound decision to push through with it. He’s been telling the same thing about getting a car since 2009! Its crazy and its making me real mad because I feel like he doesn’t mean it. :(

crossroads

sometimes, you just have to not follow the FLOW and stop and think about the things you really want. im at that point and i need time to think!

My walk with Niño

One achievable goal that I set for 2012 is to join the procession for Sto. Nño. I realized that after all, Sinulog is because of the feast of our Patron Saint Sto. Niño. Let’s not go into the details coz I don’t want to talk about religion!

My walk. I was with co workers Xela, Maya and J-ann’s beautiful family. I didn’t go home and decided to store some energy by making use of the office’s sleeping lounge. I indeed slept though my feet were freezing cold! But that was a good 3 hour sleep. It should be enough to keep me going. What I like about my experience is the awesome weather! Oh boy, never did the sun shone! And I like like like it!  The crowd was really huge but I know its something normal when it comes to Sinulog. So obviously, we didn’t have the chance to go inside the Basilica anymore. I kept on clutching my bag so tightly so a avoid misfortunate event like getting pick-pocketed to. Its better that way than be sorry. I like it when streets are close and a lot of people just walk around the city. I thanked God we are all safe and there’s no upheavals. What I really don’t like about is the lack of solemnity of the procession. I cant concentrate because of the huge crowd and because of the chit chats. I would want it to be a walk with Sto. Niño. I realized that with a crowd as huge as yesterday’s, being solemn may not come in very handy. Unfortunately, I got no camera so I really don’t have pictures of yesterday. Now, the debate of securing an itouch 4 or a camera resurfaced in my head again!

When we arrived in Colon Maya lead the way and she brought us to Cebu Thrift House. Where I was able to buy 3 books for 98 pesos!! I was thrilled as much as Mommy J-an’s kid who also is delighted with books. I am definitely going back for more!


FIREWORKS. SM held their 4th Pyrofest Competition last night and Im glad it started the very moment we arrived on the spot! Woohoo.. We got the perfect little nook to watch the incredible fireworks display. I love fireworks, Its nothing but “awesomeness” in the night sky!


But really, I wanted to thank the Sto Niño for always protecting Cebu from any calamities. For the warmth of the Cebuano people and for making Cebu a very liveable place for me. I am a true blue Cebuano and Im proud with that. I also am praying for my Family and the last thing I pray would be that Mike is safe wherever he is right now. I just want to know that he is alive and safe that’s all. I hope to hear from him in the next 6 months.

Overall, yesterday was a happy experience!

Work as if you don’t NEED the money!

Work was really busy awhile ago! Busy at a call center means, calls are coming in like crazy! Well, we kinda anticipated the heavy call volume but oh boy, it blew me away. my head was about to crack the hell up. Migraine was the last thing i wanna worry about on a busy day at work. I surely hoped it was just MIND GREEN; as what Henrick had to say but no unfortunately, it wasn’t! I wish later on when i wake up everything will be much better now. I just felt sick. Now, whats good about today is going home with FUN HELPERS!

I thank you Lord for them. There was free pizza at work too! Hey did i mentioned i did overtime too? Urghh! Hoping for the better tonight!

and PS! Kim agreed to teach me to DRIVE though i will have to pay him! im going to make it this year! yipeee!!!